On Christmas Eve, I had went to my boyfriend's house to play Taboo with his awesome family lol, I or at least made us lose mostly T.T M boyfriend, Terrence, wasn't really giving me much attention that day.. actually lately it has been touch and go.. but that night he mostly watched L.O.L. games on his laptop and ran up and down the stairs back and forth O.o (for something of course. don't know what). You would've thought he'd spend time with me since he invited me over.. He'd probably argue how I played with his sister the whole time, but it wasn't like he wanted to keep my company...
So, after that I went with Mom and Bro to midnight mass T.T. No. I didn't want to go, but at this point, my bro and I are trying to move out and even though I don't claim a religion, I find it that by now, it's a form of tradition. Even though my Bro and I aren't too keen on it T.T. I figure that it would be nice to do something together, not to mention something she likes for a change. She's kind of by herself.. feel bad x.x
We all pretty much were suprised by our gifts to each other @.@ I got an awesome TV and camera gear. And a hat and a cool box to put it in :P
Went over to Terrence's house to exchange gifts. He just got home, but once again he seemed kind of preoccupied. x.x but I did love what he got me, and he hesitated to open mine... in fact he was SOOO not paying attention to me.. he was more interested in playing a game.. yet apparently he's not going to use my gift (PS3) that I got him at all.. He did wrap it himself, which was pretty sweet :$
Soooooo... today! The world was supposed to end O.o Here is the proof of the turmoil as we speak!
Can't beat that logic! O.o lol.. but in all seriousness.. the world has not come to an end despite my attempts to try and register everyone I cared for in 2009 for a lottery to be put on the "ark" for when doomsday hits xP (Back then there was a viral website for the movie "2012" and it looked way legit. It gave 3 possible doomsday scenarios, how to survive, and kits for it! It also had the lottery that people would put their info in for one xP I decided to put everyone in there so we could all go together and I was scared shitless!! O_O;)
The only thing that comes remotely close to the world ending at the moment is my lack of getting a new job and not to mention my relationship on the rocks... I haven't seen my boyfriend in a while.. and he's going back soon.. Can't wait for Japan.. figure he'll definitely miss me then maybe... I'm contemplating going through the trouble to call or Skype him while I'm there. I figure since he barely talks to me and barely sees me now he won't care.. especially since I'll be with my ex 90% of the time... Guess we'll see what happens..
In other news, I just finished "Vanilla Sky", which I'll talk about in my next post.
The only thing that comes remotely close to the world ending at the moment is my lack of getting a new job and not to mention my relationship on the rocks... I haven't seen my boyfriend in a while.. and he's going back soon.. Can't wait for Japan.. figure he'll definitely miss me then maybe... I'm contemplating going through the trouble to call or Skype him while I'm there. I figure since he barely talks to me and barely sees me now he won't care.. especially since I'll be with my ex 90% of the time... Guess we'll see what happens..
In other news, I just finished "Vanilla Sky", which I'll talk about in my next post.
I honestly don't see how anyone could read my blog :P if anyone does, I love you!! Now, I'm typing tonight again because my boyfriend just isn't cutting it. I mean truthfully, he really doesn't want this relationship anymore like he used to. I was just sitting on the phone with him as he played I assumed L.O.L., due to the high and heavy volume of typing and mouse clicking, and he barely was trying to listen to me... I was expecting him to ask me over today since I work late tomorrow. Nope.
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Things I Would Love in a Boyfriend (if you are out there...):
Things I Would Love in a Boyfriend (if you are out there...):
- To brighten up my day with small gestures of love and kindness.
- To chase after me, because you know I will push you away because I've been hurt so many times..
- To make me feel safe and loved all the time.
- To always be there somehow, someway..
- To LISTEN to me and HEAR what I'm saying, and demonstrate that through regular conversation.
- To be able to sweep me off my feet every now and then to let me know that you still have the hots for me *blush*
- To take interest in my interest (like I will yours) and to make me a subject you would love to study *blush*
- To UNDERSTAND me to the fullest extent, and to make every effort to do so, no matter if we are up all night.
- The ability to make me happy.. by doing stuff you KNOW will make me happy and by researching on your own ways to make me happy (both mixing personal and generic attempts to find the perfect gestures)
- Buy or make me something sweet and thoughtful once in a while.
- Show a little jealousy or a sense of "you're mine, only mine" stamp once in a while, to let me know you care if I'm swept up by someone else.
- Be involved in my life as much as possible..
- Plan things to do with me in advance sometimes (no matter how long the time period) especially so I can have something to look forward to (especially on bad days at work)..
- Do fun and quirky things with me and to me.. make me laugh sometimes :)
- Help me when I need it... Be there in multiple ways..
- If you can't write or draw or whatever, I'd love it if you'd try for me, even if it's crappy, I would love it that if it will make me happy you'll do anything to keep me that way..
- Bring me to the stars and moon and make me your world...
- Find new ways to keep the relationship fresh and new once in a blue moon possibly... keep me yearning after you
- Surprise me!
- Make the little things count.. and most of all always tell me you love me, regardless of what happened between us..
Tonight Terrence and I had such a great time together! :$ I missed him sooooooooooo much!! We made out a lot and we went to try out a new sushi place xP the sushi place was okay :P I still like our little spot of Ru San's better ^.^ then we went to Barnes and Noble because we were too early for the movie and browsed around. And then when we finally went to see Skyfall (new James Bond movie) we hardly paid any attention to it! xD We were making out A LOT and molesting each other too :$ I wanted him really bad, but time was against us T.T I can't wait to see him again ^.^ I wanted to make a lot of things I've done to him and said to him lately... I feel pretty shitty... I love him very very much, and I hope that he'll never give up on me :$ I hope to spend the rest of my life with this super sexy man! Still have his aroma on my fingers *sniff* ( @ .@) <3
No one understands me; I feel alone and empty..