The Dangerous Kaos Experience

         I want soooooooooooooo bad to do edgy things with my boyfriend. It's always been like that with every boyfriend I've been with. They lack the confidence to dance with me in the middle of a bumping circle of strangers in strobe lights and electronica music ( - .-)... for example. Crazy yeah? O.o Anyways.... I wanna do random, crazy, out-of-this-world things! I think I may need to leave my boyfriend behind, and set sail (' -' ) to another country. I think I'm going to go on vacation cross-country by myself. I'm pretty sure that my family (and boyfriend) are going to be like, "oh my gooosh, noooo don't go alooone", but I mean I could've sworn that Terrence was going on a cruise with his girlfriend, and honestly I never got the opportunity to really be single O.o

         Deal with it!\( ' -')/ Totally going to find a place to be free and WILD!! UGH!! ( - .-) being around straight-laced people on a REGULAR BASIS, I forget that life is wonderful, rigid, roller coaster of WTF WAS THAT?! ( ' -')b

         I can't even BEGIN to start my rant without verbally destroying the title with curse words!! I tell you, if Terrence still read my blog, he'd find reason to be happy on his birthday month. In fact, he'd probably jump for joy that shit is happening to me... assumingly. 

         In any case, I AM TIRED!! I AM TIRED OF BEING STRESSED AND DEPRESSED!!! Every time I try to have a life where things don't go HORRIBLY WRONG it DOES ANYWAY! FUCK. EVERYTHING. 

         Today, I was stressed from work at its finest, and just when I was getting an even better grip on my position at the new company I work for. However, I find it unnecessary that my validity be questioned with such high accusatory tones, statements, and questions!! 
    

My Life Now.

         In any case, stressful day at work. Boom. Shouldn't be that big of a deal, right? I mean technically it shouldn't be, because I love where I work now. I really REALLY do. The people are into games, manga, anime, and many more things! However, it's when I get off of work that I have to:

1. Deal with driving back to my apartment for another 30-40 minutes. 
2. Deal with stingy/cheapskate brother and his routine check for unplugging everything from every socket if not in use. 
3. Deal with boyfriend who has nothing to really offer me nor this relationship, and:
1. I'm pretty sure he doesn't know much about me because he's wrapped up in his world all the time, even when I come over.
2. He's selfish.
3. He feels entitled to everything.
4. He can't even make me feel at ease when I get off from work at all. 
5. It's always about him.