This song :$
Lmao how I imagine the dark side of my boyfriend is in gridlock traffic coming from Sandy Springs after work xD
OMG this weekend was like WTF! O.O In ways that I am going to try my hardest to explain xD.
Usually it seems that after every weekend I suddenly forget what happened when Monday comes for some odd reason ( Daniel's saying xD). This weekend was highly memorable though lol. On Friday, Daniel had stayed the night (forgot if there was a particular reason?), and I think it was because his bro was having a birthday and we were going to go celebrate with him, but had gotten too late.
Saturday though, lol, he got off early and I met him at my apartment so we could go to the apartment complex he was checking out for him an his roommate. And we got there in record time according to the GPS, but unfortunately we couldn't take a tour. Of course I was there for support and acted like I was renting it with him xD It was pretty fun and cute. ^.^ After that we saw another complex that seemed kinda cool and BETTER O.o and it was pretty much next door! Lol, afterwards we decided to get some food at whatever random place I chose off of his phone app xD (which was fun). We decided on this Jamaican place after having my epic fail Thai place.. fail xD.
Later on that night, after getting hot and bothered in the backseat of his car xD, my bro invited 3 women over (friends), and we all got pretty wasted shockingly xP. My bro and Daniel apparently had a bit much to drink, which ended it with me cleaning and taking care of them ( - .-);; But you know love them, so what are you gonna do? xD I was bit mad at Daniel for certain things that went on that night, or at least at first. Lmao.. at on point he stumbled into my room and was trying to cuddle with me xD it was quite the night to remember xP.
Sunday it rained like all day. Daniel, bro, and I stayed inside and chilled. Then at some point my bro left, and Daniel and I had gotten particularly close :P then eventually we went to get Zaxby's and some antacid for his poor stomach lol. He also got the Banana Pudding milkshake which was SOOOO GOOD!!! ( @ .@)
Overall this weekend, like usual, was totally awesome! I can't wait to see what this coming weekend has in store lol ^.^
Usually it seems that after every weekend I suddenly forget what happened when Monday comes for some odd reason ( Daniel's saying xD). This weekend was highly memorable though lol. On Friday, Daniel had stayed the night (forgot if there was a particular reason?), and I think it was because his bro was having a birthday and we were going to go celebrate with him, but had gotten too late.
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| Our awesome food! |
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| Daniel and his cute smile :) |
Saturday though, lol, he got off early and I met him at my apartment so we could go to the apartment complex he was checking out for him an his roommate. And we got there in record time according to the GPS, but unfortunately we couldn't take a tour. Of course I was there for support and acted like I was renting it with him xD It was pretty fun and cute. ^.^ After that we saw another complex that seemed kinda cool and BETTER O.o and it was pretty much next door! Lol, afterwards we decided to get some food at whatever random place I chose off of his phone app xD (which was fun). We decided on this Jamaican place after having my epic fail Thai place.. fail xD.
Sunday it rained like all day. Daniel, bro, and I stayed inside and chilled. Then at some point my bro left, and Daniel and I had gotten particularly close :P then eventually we went to get Zaxby's and some antacid for his poor stomach lol. He also got the Banana Pudding milkshake which was SOOOO GOOD!!! ( @ .@)
Overall this weekend, like usual, was totally awesome! I can't wait to see what this coming weekend has in store lol ^.^
Daniel is indecisive about food today. ( ' -') just had to document the rare occasion ( ' .')
Today!!! OMG, I forgot I switched with my co-worker so she could open today and I close... so naturally I:
- (>' -')> get up at 5 A.M.
- Then find out that it's not till 2 that I go in and leave after eating breakfast on the go and having my cappuccino mix this morning <('- '<)
- s( ' - ' )z seriously?!
*cough cough* Honda is awesome! :P
So, this weekend was pure bliss! Daniel and I spent the entire weekend together! It was great, and I have no reservations about it or bad thoughts or anything of that nature.
We first spent Friday together at my place, but i forgot what exactly we did that day xP. He spent the night and slept in because he had no work that Saturday :P. When I heard he was paling around with my cousin and brother and taking care of them, it made me more attracted to him xD. I get back and he and I go to mall of Georgia (which is HUGE!!) to get a necklace for me :$ (Aww). We look around some stores and he encourages me to have him buy what I want. The only other time that has happened to me is when I was with one of my exes in Japan and our past relationship. The only difference is thank goodness that's not the only way Daniel shows his affection! lol :P. I wanted to get a few things I saw but I guess 1.) didn't wanna be selfish, and 2.) wasn't used to having that type of affection bestowed upon me. He did get me to get this wonderful lotion from Victoria's Secret. It smells REALLY GOOD! @.@
Sunday was rushed. We had gotten closer in the morning and then took my friend to work. All the while, we were tying to go to Import Alliance, and meet up with my bro and cuz there. We got there and hour before it was over which was cool from what we saw that remained. We vowed to go to the Summer meet though ^.^ Came back, and dropped of my cuz eventually, then went to go get ice cream (I took forever x.x) then kept each others company while messing with our laptops. He showed me a show online last night called Loiter Squad. Lmao I love that show now xD man I wish I had cable xD I kept falling asleep and Daniel kept trying to keep me up xD I think he was tad annoyed xD He also told a friend of his about me, which was too cute xD We had also went to walmart to get some things. One thing that was so profound to me and very sexy was when he leaned over and saw my gas tank was half full and told me, not asked, to pull in to a gas station so he could fill it up. Omg I was so turned on by that (I forgot to), though definitely wanted him to xD. Now see, that's a real man. One who takes care of his woman and even her family and friends.
Rethinking this weekend has me realizing my feelings more for him. Days I spend with him are great! Though it's days I don't spend with him, and sometimes not text, that I get to digest my feelings and thoughts about him and us. I hadn't told him that I still kind of have lingering feelings for my ex Terrence... didn't seem necessary to mention during our fun weekend. But after the events that happened this weekend, I'm starting to more and more recognize my feelings for him. I appreciate this patience with me and learning and listening about me and my past. He's right; we are a rare couple, and I hope this is everlasting :$
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| Bro pointing to hot cars |
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| *drool* Import Alliance |
Sunday was rushed. We had gotten closer in the morning and then took my friend to work. All the while, we were tying to go to Import Alliance, and meet up with my bro and cuz there. We got there and hour before it was over which was cool from what we saw that remained. We vowed to go to the Summer meet though ^.^ Came back, and dropped of my cuz eventually, then went to go get ice cream (I took forever x.x) then kept each others company while messing with our laptops. He showed me a show online last night called Loiter Squad. Lmao I love that show now xD man I wish I had cable xD I kept falling asleep and Daniel kept trying to keep me up xD I think he was tad annoyed xD He also told a friend of his about me, which was too cute xD We had also went to walmart to get some things. One thing that was so profound to me and very sexy was when he leaned over and saw my gas tank was half full and told me, not asked, to pull in to a gas station so he could fill it up. Omg I was so turned on by that (I forgot to), though definitely wanted him to xD. Now see, that's a real man. One who takes care of his woman and even her family and friends.
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| Daniel |
Rethinking this weekend has me realizing my feelings more for him. Days I spend with him are great! Though it's days I don't spend with him, and sometimes not text, that I get to digest my feelings and thoughts about him and us. I hadn't told him that I still kind of have lingering feelings for my ex Terrence... didn't seem necessary to mention during our fun weekend. But after the events that happened this weekend, I'm starting to more and more recognize my feelings for him. I appreciate this patience with me and learning and listening about me and my past. He's right; we are a rare couple, and I hope this is everlasting :$
Last night
was interesting and kinda funny xD. Daniel and I did get closer in many ways
last night. I feel bad though because I cried in front of him, about my ex and
the recent past… I sometimes feel like I jumped in too soon with Daniel, but at
the same time I feel really fortunate to have him by my side ^.^ He is the guy
I’ve been looking for, he is the guy that I wouldn’t mind living out the rest
of my years with ^.^
My ex’s,
Terrence, birthday is coming up in 4 days.. I shouldn’t care, and I don’t because
I’m not going to wish him happy birthday lol, but it just made me remember
things about him.. us.. As Mom said, Terrence isn’t a bad guy, he’s just more
than likely not for me. I say it like that because I felt so strongly we were
going to last, thought no time could or nothing could tear us apart… worse part
is that he is coming back to Riverdale for summer break, which will be the
challenge that Daniel and I face. I dunno how he feels about it. I just know he
is very focused on me and our relationship, which I appreciate and admire a
lot.
Daniel is
like no one I have ever met. There’s this one face that he makes that I just
can’t control myself (lol which he doesn’t know), actually there are a few
faces he makes that is irresistible. :$ Today
is going to be proving how well rounded he is in the game of love lol :P I’m in
for a real surprise ^.^. Right now, he’s sleeping in my apartment, and watching
him was cute. I have to adjust to him so much though. The last time I had a
boyfriend that was close in proximity to me was 4 years ago.. The last time I
had a boyfriend who was truly in love with me was 10 years ago (Richard for 6
years) O.o Funnily enough, I think Daniel is right though. I think we are for
each other, it’s just taking me longer because of how fresh the break was from
Terrence, and also because I’m still learning about him (and him learning about
me). I can say one thing though lol, there’s never a dull moment xD
Can't help but wonder if Daniel told me he loved me to potentially "seal the deal", if you know what I mean, since he was kinda trying to push the enelope n that the same night!... I wanna believe that after this semi-short time period I can see why he might love me, but I dunno... What if it's actually infatuation... I feel overly rushed... He's coming over to go play games with Ty and my other buddies today. Honestly, I can't completely say he totally deserves to advance further given that:
- He hadn't properly asked me out (yet).. like what if I was going to say "no, I'm not ready yet." (I feel like I'm not really given a choice in a way..)
- I honestly don't feel swept off my feet.. maybe a little bit
- We do have this unbelievable connection and a large list of common interests and standards, but to me that doesn't determine how I should feel about a person..
I’ve been going through the motions of weeding Terrence out of my life completely. Perhaps I just went a bit fast upon getting close with Daniel, but it felt right. I want to be with him, but I guess I’m just trying to digest and accept things from my past… I used to hope Terrence would come back to me, but after seeing how he still had his ex on his Facebook page, it made me realize that he’s probably talking to her still..
Honestly, for the past years of my life, I’ve always seemed to be very reserved and to myself. When I liked a guy, I never told him, ever. I waited for that “I can’t live without you speech” to suddenly arise from nowhere from them, mostly if we were already talking as friends. I always kept my distance, and being chased was always a plus for me (which is how I usually make friends). Here in my current situation, Daniel has given me the attention and affection and dedication I’ve yearned for so long. And honestly I can’t deny him at this point, but I realize I do have to move slow now because I’m starting to feel on edge about all this… I’ve never had a guy like Daniel. Ever. I just want to make sure this is really the real deal. I would hate to have to hurt him in the end, and lose someone that I feel is more than likely my soulmate. Maybe we just need to do more things together outside our humble abodes.. or maybe we need to chalk up the romance a bit more.
After my last relationship, I vowed to never have any relationship be mostly lustful. I also vowed to not have a relationship that was geared more platonic like my 6 year relationship.I just want a nice balance..
Daniel got me into this song, it's like my ears are on extacy xD
So, Me and Daniel have been spending a lot of time together. :P In fact, he spent the night yesterday cuddling till dawn, then we spent all day together today. It was interesting because I didn't know he came prepared to spend the night xD.
I went over to his place, so we could eat dinner. He's cooking dinner, and I'm actually excited! ^.^ He's making Roasted Garlic and Herb Spaghetti with ground turkey tonight, and I'm pretty hungry x.x I wish I could've taken a picture of this xD It's pretty cute watching this :P
Sometimes I dunno, but I'm always wondering what he's thinking O.o Like when we're cuddling, and spending time together O.o We seem to flirt a lot, but at times I'm wondering where it is going :P
Today, I had learned some interesting stuff today about him, and I know he is going to read this to try and see what I say about the things I found in his closet or even what he is saying about.. *cough* sex and endurance xP I also got to see his fiancee's wedding ring, and also heard about how unconventionally romantic he can be and I just keep thinking how jealous I was of all of this.. O.o A lot was going on in my mind about what he has saying as far as his experience, wasn't sure how to take this.
Sooooo... I met someone online recently ^.^ He makes me really happy, and it kinda happened so fast!! O.o
It all started when Terrence wouldn't and refused to give me a straight answer about our pending relationship or break-up issue. We broke up almost a month ago, and at one point I kept trying to give him space and make him miss me. But it made no difference because he claimed he did not want a relationship with me right now, and didn't think he was ready to make the change to make our relationship work.
So, about a week later after getting back online and setting up my okcupid profile, I decided it's time for me to at least make an effort. And when I say timing is everything, I mean timing is EVERYTHING! lmao. So, Daniel found me on there after he narrowed down his search, and thankfully I had decided to put something related to Dubstep and Anime on there. I primarily did that because I knew it would be rare and hopefully ward off men xP. I had also put out there on my summary my rough March turmoil, to maybe give them forewarning to what to and what not to expect from me.
Daniel contacted me and we started out slow as friends. He understood my situation, and he messaged me all day and everyday ^.^ He kept me going to the point that he and I decided to meet in person. We decided to go to the movies and we ended up seeing "Evil Dead" ( " -") it wasn't really great.. but afterwards we went to Starbucks and got tea and sat down and talked for HOURS till they were closing down the shop! When we are together he's right.. time just STOPS. It's like it's trying to get us to catch up. We have SOME MUCH IN COMMON it can be a bit scary and surreal!! Recently he's gone through same relationship issues and death of a grandmother this same time of year, and I couldn't be more thankful to have met him ^.^
Yesterday, we had another spontaneous day of fun ^.^ He came by to originally give me the masks for my allergy problem (which of course comes at the WORST TIME!! -.-) and I invited him in. He didn't expect me to xD but I had wanted to see him, and apparently he did too :P I wanted to make a snack for him, and I didn't have the proper ingrediants, so we went to Wal-mart and got strawberries and Ritz crackers. Daniel was so intrigued, which he's highly intrigued about me it's unreal. We both do a lot of research, and put the effort into making things happen. And him and my bro get along so beautifully I was getting bit jealous xD He said my bro is cool, and that he reminds him of one of his old friends.
Right now, I miss him... last night he stayed over kinda xD we stayed up and napped for an hour in each other's arms before we both had to get up and go to work at 5 A.m. He was aggressive and was holding me from behind, which felt so good :$ The way he rested his head in my neck it just felt so natural.. I wish we both had today off.. we had learned a little bit more about each other yesterday, and his place is really cool too ^.^ and his car! O.o We've been getting so close that I've forgotten about Terrence. In fact, he texted me when I was at applebees with Daniel (which again we stayed for hours at xD) and I never responded to him.. nor his words with friends request that has been pending for 3 days now. *sigh* where has he been all my life? lol :P