Yesterday... and Forward.
I’ve been going through the motions of weeding Terrence out of my life completely. Perhaps I just went a bit fast upon getting close with Daniel, but it felt right. I want to be with him, but I guess I’m just trying to digest and accept things from my past… I used to hope Terrence would come back to me, but after seeing how he still had his ex on his Facebook page, it made me realize that he’s probably talking to her still..
Honestly, for the past years of my life, I’ve always seemed to be very reserved and to myself. When I liked a guy, I never told him, ever. I waited for that “I can’t live without you speech” to suddenly arise from nowhere from them, mostly if we were already talking as friends. I always kept my distance, and being chased was always a plus for me (which is how I usually make friends). Here in my current situation, Daniel has given me the attention and affection and dedication I’ve yearned for so long. And honestly I can’t deny him at this point, but I realize I do have to move slow now because I’m starting to feel on edge about all this… I’ve never had a guy like Daniel. Ever. I just want to make sure this is really the real deal. I would hate to have to hurt him in the end, and lose someone that I feel is more than likely my soulmate. Maybe we just need to do more things together outside our humble abodes.. or maybe we need to chalk up the romance a bit more.
After my last relationship, I vowed to never have any relationship be mostly lustful. I also vowed to not have a relationship that was geared more platonic like my 6 year relationship.I just want a nice balance..
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