Can't Help But Wonder..

by - 7:16 PM

         Can't help but wonder if Daniel told me he loved me to potentially "seal the deal", if you know what I mean, since he was kinda trying to push the enelope n that the same night!... I wanna believe that after this semi-short time period I can see why he might love me, but I dunno... What if it's actually infatuation... I feel overly rushed... He's coming over to go play games with Ty and my other buddies today. Honestly, I can't completely say he totally deserves to advance further given that:

  1. He hadn't properly asked me out (yet).. like what if I was going to say "no, I'm not ready yet." (I feel like I'm not really given a choice in a way..)
  2. I honestly don't feel swept off my feet.. maybe a little bit
  3. We do have this unbelievable connection and a large list of common interests and standards, but to me that doesn't determine how I should feel about a person..
         He's sweet and loving, it's just I'm used to a more long standing traditional of waiting a period of time after knowing someone and earning that advancement before advancing to much serious things like potentially advancing to that. I feel like he finds me easy maybe... or maybe he's just overly confident... sometimes I'm jealous of his past, and yes even though it is in the PAST feel like I'm not really being understood, and actually! I don't feel understood on a individual level. Like we share common interests and most standards but it doesn't mean that he, for example, understands how I tick as a person... I just feel like what I'm thinking or wanting isn't even being taken into consideration... like there's a process for me, I have things I want and need in a relationship that goes beyond physical ANYTHING. Feel confused... and highly rushed and overwhelmed... I don't even know what to do...

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