Smothered and...
Ugh... I'm SUPER JEALOUS... People my age get to do fun stuff with their significant other, or do more in general with people. Instead I'm being smothered by my clingy boyfriend who doesn't have a penny to offer me. I'm guessing maybe he's doing that because he is constantly low on funds (do to expenses that pop up like his timing belt and stuff), and feels like suffocating me is a another way of saying "I Love You". WRONG. Unfortunately, his ex has paved the way to create a monster. Bitch.
Next year, Him and I are supposed to travel to Japan next year with my friends. I have already expressed to him that I will NOT be taking care of him overseas, and that the least I can do is pay for our hotel and food (if he's really that stricken for cash). I told him I will not be embarrassed in front of an ex/friend and my other friends who have sacrificed, saved, and does not make the rest of the group feel like we owe them something.
The more things I find to do without him (like what ended up with Richard, one of my exes), the less time I will want to spend around my boyfriend. If having fun by myself is all he can "afford", so be it. He makes me feel guilty without knowing it I guess when I am able to afford things. He'll have this look on his face like "I wish I could go" or "I wish you didn't pay". I figure that if you wish so bad (anyone for that matter) for something to be a certain way, what is stopping you?
I realized just now, that I ALWAYS get, what I like to call, the "fixer-upper house project boys". This means I get the broken, intolerable, stubborn, broke, selfish, unpleasing-to-women, problem "men" that after going through a relationship "boot camp" with me for a few years or more, they become the BEST or MUCH BETTER boyfriends and husbands to the next woman or skanky bitch they cheated on me with!
Why can't I have such luxury? Do I naturally take in abandoned lost puppies?! I believe there is an article about this scenario. *Links it* <-- Link.
Also, the below red flags have given me reason to believe I have a "fixer-upper" I think that he needs to get himself together, and do some soul searching.. I think I need to tell him this, though it's going to hurt, because I don't know what's going to happen..
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