Space
In celebrating my spot in time, where I float among space, I have posted the picture above ( ' -')/
Daniel is in Florida currently for the Fourth of July weekend, and I feel guilty to say this, but I'm happy because I can actually have some space! \( ' .')/ I can have some me time! It's sad I guess that I have to wait till my boyfriend leaves town to do so. He's been texting me off the hook.. And I'm pretty sue it's because he misses me.. however I never get that point in time where I can truly say I miss you because everywhere I turn he is there lol. Not just that, but he does this thing where he is a bit clingy x.x Makes me feel bad when I told him the day before.. but I don't know how else to give him the message that I NEED SPACE lol. He didn't even give me time to get over Terrence x.x (not that I'm totally complaining about that anymore).
I don't know if he's afraid of something like me cheating on him or something. But if he wants to spend every waking moment with me, there needs to be money and planning involved lol. Sorry to say, but I'm not going to just stay locked up in his place as often as I have been anymore. I guess I will seek my own set of space if need be. I used to ignore people who kept doing that. Like a friend of mine who is constant on Facebook ( @ -@). I don't want to have to do that. It's already problem-some that we have issues lol, Sometimes I just want to sit and be idle or do something FUN for a change. And most times he sounds like a 40 year old stuck in his prime at 20 in the 1940s, while also sounding like a typical black guy trying to hustle into "the great life". But he never takes time to be mellow and chillout or even have fun. Like I if something fun is going on I don't usually want to invite him.. mostly because he will become all "wall flower" on me. In any case, I also need time to figure out if this relationship is worth it in the end.. WE HAVE SO MANY ISSUES RIGHT NOW X___X
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