Birthday Bro and More

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Happy Birthday Bro!
Good morning Blogger! Lol, probably wondering why I am so chipper this morning. To be honest I don’t know myself xD It might have something to do with how much of a success my brother’s 22nd birthday party was yesterday. 

Chris talking.


Haha.
Yesterday was very interesting apart from my brother’s birthday. Daniel came over for the weekend. Though he and I technically planned for this for a week, or at least glorified how that Friday was the day that life would feel awesome again because of hellish work week, he was on the reserve of staying over. I was confused because he literally packed for this. But before I get into all that I need to back up and rewind lol. We finally got back to the apartment after missing our exit when racing my cousin on the highway xD lol and I get a call from Camille, everyone’s buddy I guess now at this point, and she asks me to go to gas station to get a can for the drinking game “circle of death”, and Daniel and I are still in the car when this happens. Mind you, we finally got into my apartment after trying like 4 times to enter in the number to get into my apartment through my phone because I forgot my swipe pass. Anyway, I ask Daniel if it’s okay if we go run this tiny yet inconvenient errand, and he said okay. But I asked and took it as if he was going to drive there without me asking further since I asked him if we could go and we were already in his car. Instead he asked who should drive, and at this point I was asking myself “Really?”, primarily because I’m already dead tired and passing out on the passenger side since we left Ru Sans. I volunteer to drive and I was going to will myself to do it since it was my brother’s birthday party and all, but somehow I guess Daniel figures I’m too tired and we had quite a small and heated make out session in his car. He drives unwillingly to the nearest gas station up the street, and all the while I’m in the car I feel kind of bad.. but what makes it worse is when we get there and he asks me if he should come with me. I look at him and then look outside thinking to myself, “well this place doesn’t look very safe or at least not at this time of night.” But maybe he asked because he thought I would be okay due to the police car being right outside. Either way, I was thinking to myself, “you’re my boyfriend, figure you would go with me anyways unless I say, “I’ll be right back.” Anyway, he decides on his own to come with me because I just keep saying it’s up to you. He kind of looks at me I guess puzzled on what to do, but I was just tired and kind of surprised that it didn’t seem to be obvious that he should just come in with me. At this point, I start to question how deep his feelings really run for me, granted that we’ve almost been together for a month and almost known each other for 2. I get the drink, go back to apartment, play drinking game with a bottle of water instead, Daniel learns [CLASSIFIED] information about me and others, then I attempt to hit the bed when he asks as I started to mention at the beginning of this paragraph.

To me, I guess I thought the answer was obvious once he asked me if he should stay. I mean, yeah why wouldn’t you stay ( - .-). Anyway, at some point he does this sexy aggressive move where he picks me up and holds me in his arms facing him and never letting me go *heart beats fast* :$ Eventually, he says he needs to get things out of the car for the weekend of or that night or whatever, and he asks if I want to come with him. I give him grief about it saying, “if you want me to.” He eventually says he does. He finally gets that I’m mimicking him from earlier when we were at the gas station. Clever. And then I learn later on that he can pick up on things about me, but just responds or acts in unconventional ways or ways that may not typically be the way that he should go about responding or reacting. And to be honest for the most part at times I feel like I’m misunderstood by him like when I’m joking I’m not sure when he can tell half the time if I’m joking or not. Though it’s awesome he finds me funny and is as random and funny as me xD. He feels like I don’t fully understand him, and I think it’s primarily because of one thing he hasn’t told me yet.

In any case, we are getting a lot closer, and the more we do spend time together in person, whoever long we have, our bond strengthens. Sometimes though when we are away and I can’t readily text him back on my job, I end up missing him a lot. But then there are times when we are apart that I yearn for something a little extra I guess once in a while maybe? Like I don’t know, maybe something like when I wanted to play the random picture game with him yesterday (game where you send each other random pictures in your phone and describe what they are or what made you take it or whatever), or when he sent me jobs posts from indeed. I don’t know, maybe something a little more than texting or calling maybe? Only because I don’t really get him to myself but for maybe one and a half days.. and I didn’t realize how short a time span I just made it seem like considering that it seems longer, which I guess it would be almost two days in total. His schedule kind of hinders us during the week, and I know he’s tired most of the time he gets home. If he’s not, sometimes he wouldn’t be able to fool me lol. Soon he’s moving closer to his job where he can save money on gas, and also be closer to his job after work. I’m happy for him. It’s just he won’t be close to me anymore, and for whatever reason it might feel lonely… I mean we’d still be together, but it’ll just feel like I can’t really just pop over there or him over to my place at last minute during week and expect to be a functioning human being in the morning lol. I don’t know maybe we would have gotten a better hang on our relationship by then, where distance is more of a physical thing than a mental one. My feelings and emotions for him always end up coming close to “climaxing” into a full blown oh my God I am so deeply and desperately in love with you when he comes over for the weekends. But then when he’s gone during the week it’s hard for us to see each other and really spend time together regardless if we plan it out or not lol… I hope that by then we would’ve come up with an.. alternative to keeping things every now and then interesting while we are away from each other all week. It would prove to be helpful if forbid one of us ever had to do a lot of traveling for a job in the future, or just traveling in period. I’m willing to put in the work for this relationship, and he is pretty handsome lol :$ There is a lot of potential for this relationship, and I feel it; we just have a lot of work to do lol..

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